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A JOURNAL FROM GRIEF TO HOPE

Wear the Red Dress

31 Days. 3 Parts. 1 Journey.

A devotional journal from grief to hope — María Pérez-Gómez's tender, honest companion for anyone learning to carry loss and still choose to live in color.

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For anyone who has ever loved, lost and hoped again.

THE BOOK

A Devotional Journal from Grief to Hope

Wear the Red Dress is María Pérez-Gómez's most personal work yet — a devotional journal written for anyone who has lost someone, and is still learning what to do with the grief that's left behind.

Drawing from her own losses — including the eulogy she wrote for her mother — María offers hope through her honest reflections, gentle prompts, and permission to grieve without losing your color.

  • Devotional reflections paired with guided journal prompts

  • Personal essays on loss, memory, and resilience

  • Written for readers at any stage of grief — new or old

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"Demonstrating her talent as a poet, lyricist, and memoirist, María captures the many facets of finding hope in the midst of grief."

 - Carmen Renee Berry, Berry Powell Publishing

LISTEN

Hear a Reflection from María

A short devotional reading from the book, in María's own voice.

More of You, Less of MeMaría Pérez-Gómez
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IN MEMORY

The Eulogies

Here you can find the eulogies María's siblings wrote for their mother. The eulogy María wrote for her mother can be read on day 27 in Wear the Red Dress.

Rafael J. Pérez, a.k.a. Lito

I want to thank you all for your love and support. Without it, this would have been impossible. Gracias desde el fondo de nuestros corazones. So, this all started back on June 3, 1944. From the beginning, my mother, Nivian Haydee Rodríguez Góñez de Pérez, fell forever in love with her family. She loved all her family—and that’s not easy. Mami’s family is huge. She adored her parents, mis abuelos, Doña Elena y Don Jorge, who she called out for her during her final days. She loved her brothers and sisters, starting with Angel Luis, may he rest in peace, and Georgie, who recently made it to heaven. The surprise my mother must have had when she saw her brother Georgie waiting for her in heaven! We also miss you, Tío Georgie. Then came José, Carmen Lucila, Yolanda, Teté (a.k.a.Millie), Rosi, María Elena, Becky, and Betty. I also have tomention the sisterly love she had for Aunt Carmen—they were more like sisters than aunt and niece. She also deeply loved our Papi—que en paz descanse—her children, her grandchildren, her daughters- and sons-in-law, her numerous brothers-and sisters-in-law, aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews, cousins, and friends. The thing is that if you weren’t family, she’d interview you until she found a connection and voila: You were family! That was Mami. She had so much love that she could love them all and still have a full tank of love. My mother’s love of family manifested itself into the love she had for children. My mother was the one who you could drop off your newborns with—yes, even more than one at a time—and have absolutely no worries. In the final months of her life, my mother wanted unity, understanding, peace, and love. In Spanish, that’s unión, entendimiento, paz y amor. She said it all the time. And in the last week of her life, she brought her children, all four of us, together in a way I have never been together with my siblings:unidos, laughing, crying, hugging, reminiscing, holding hands. Through the unity, we understood that we are here to take care of each other the same way Mami took care of us and loved others, especially children. That unity and understanding turned our home into a place of peace and love. Mami did that for us during her last week with us. And I thought… wait. If I take the “U” from unión, the “E” from entendimiento, the “P” from paz, and the “A” from amor, it spells out “UEPA!” So, the next time you hear “UEPA,” you don’t have to think “unión, entendimiento, paz, and amor.”Think of Nivian, our Mami, your Ita, your sister, your aunt, your niece, your cousin, your friend! Can I get a UEPA? UEPA! Descansa en unión, entendimiento, paz y amor. I love you Mami! ¡Bendición!

Victoria Pérez Maggiolo

It’s been a gift. During the last few months of Mami’s life, I got to know her more than I ever thought I would. I learned that she was a free spirit running through the countryside of Villalba,Puerto Rico, escaping up to the mountains, being her grandparents’ niña mimada, and an older sister who taught her younger sisters many lessons. She was someone they could always count on. A young woman who opened the doors to her already large family to many friends from school. Someone who helped many women in need of childcare—and those families inevitably became part of the family. Víctor and I are her youngest, but we had many little brothers and sisters: Ruthie’s kids, Gloria’s kids, Jeany Rios’ kids, Papi’scoworker Cheryl’s daughter, Millie’s daughters. She took care of my friends’ babies when they were in need. And the list can keep going. I was fortunate to share her with so many people. No one knew her as Nivian: She was either Mami or Ita. The community’s surrogate mother and grandmother. And that’s the biggest gift she’s leaving me with. We welcome, we take care of, we become family. We get to be there for each other, no questions asked. You enjoy giving, you expect nothing in return,and you love hard. You love hard, and you gain peace. You gain peace, which opens the door to unity. Love, amor, peace, paz, unity, unión—and lastly understanding, entendimiento. That’s the product of una vida de paz, amor y unión. El entendimiento. That’s all Mami wanted. All her life, she would repeat those four words. And it took nearing the end of her life for me to finally receive those words in my heart. Simple words, but Mami’s actions through her life demonstrated that she intentionally led with amor, paz, unión y entendimiento. Thank you, Mami, for letting me get to know you as you were transitioning to the next phase of your life. I promise to lead the same way you did. Bendición.

Víctor M. Pérez

Standing here today is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do because saying goodbye to Mami feels impossible. Mami wasn’t just someone I loved—she was someone I needed. She was my constant. My safe place. The person I could go to no matter how old I got or how strong I tried to be. When life felt overwhelming, she was the one who made it feel manageable just by being there. She loved in a way that was quiet but powerful. She put everyone else first, often without realizing how much she was giving of herself. Her love didn’t come with conditions or expectations—it was simply there, steady and unconditional. I will forever be grateful to have known that kind of love. She knew me better than anyone. She knew when something was wrong, even if I said I was fine. She believed in me on the days I doubted myself. And no matter what was going on in her own life, she made sure the people she loved felt cared for. Losing her leaves a pain that words can’t fully explain. There’s a silence where her voice should be, and a space that no one else can fill. But even in this heartbreak, I know she hasn’t really left us. She lives on in everything she taught us, in the love she gave, and in the way she shaped who we are. Mami, thank you for loving us the way you did. Thank you for your sacrifices, your patience, and your endless heart. I hope you knew how deeply you were loved, because you were—and always will be. I miss you more than I can say. And I will carry you with me, always.

“Through vulnerability and wisdom gained on the other side of her own grief, pain, and loss, María uses prose and poetry to encourage, challenge, and point others in the direction of healing and new perspectives. Like taking the hand of a trusted friend, María invites you through her life experiences to journey together as you gain insight into your own."

Laurie Fatica-Tice, Training Facilitator in Classic Trauma Healing

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A TRUE ADVENTURER

Writer. Performer. Advocate. Mother.

Welcome — I'm thrilled you've made it here. I hold many names and titles: writer, performer, singer, sister, wife, mother, and now author. But to me, these books are so much more than stories.

María Pérez-Gómez is a writer, performing artist, speaker, and managing director of Raíces Theatre Company, where she has written and produced plays that use storytelling as a vehicle for healing.

 

Of Puerto Rican heritage, she was raised in Buffalo, New York, surrounded by grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins. When she was eleven, her family relocated to Puerto Rico. There, she attended Sacred Heart University in Santurce before completing her studies at Buffalo State University in New York, where she earned a degree in communication.

Her work includes directing a shelter for asylum seekers in Western New York, where she witnesses firsthand resilience at the intersection of grief and hope.

 

A gifted speaker, she has delivered keynote addresses for the New York State Association for Bilingual Education (NYSABE) and has presented in school systems, churches, organizations, and bookstores throughout New York State and Puerto Rico.

 

She is the award-winning author of The Magical Closet Mystery: A Puerto Rican Adventure, which has been adapted into the children’s musical The Magical Closet Mystery: The Musical.

 

Alongside her sister, she received the Emanuel Fried Artie Award for Outstanding New Play for Isleña. A survivor of grief, two strokes, and the kind of loss that reshapes a life, María writes from experience, inviting all to embrace a faith rooted in justice, community, and hope.

 

A member of St. Joseph’s University Parish, she lives in Buffalo, New York, with her husband of thirty years, surrounded by a growing and beloved family.

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Awards for The Magical Closet Mystery: A Puerto Rican Adventure

2024 ILBA Award, Gold Winner     •     2023 Benjamin Franklin Award, Silver Winner  

•       2023 International Book Awards, Honorable Mention

A LIFETIME OF EXPERIENCE

One author's journey

María's writing draws from her real experiences, from a childhood where grief played a primary role in building her capacity for creating a safe space of communal healing.

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CHILDHOOD

The Closet

ROOTS

Puerto Rico

CRAFT

Stage & Song

SERVICE

Vive Shelter

TODAY

Author

After losing her brother young, María hid in her closet to grieve — the seed of everything she'd later write.

The island her late father cherished becomes the living backdrop of her stories, culture, and language.

As a performer, singer, and Managing Director of Raíces Theatre, María learns to hold an audience's heart.

Directing a shelter for asylum seekers, she carries storytelling's power into advocacy and community.

Two books (thus far), one truth: closets can be doorways to magic, and grief can become a story of hope worth sharing.

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